Amy Tang - China Team

Today's AMI devotional on 1 Samuel 10 discusses Saul's deep rooted insecurities that resulted from a lack of trust in God. Especially during this season of midterms, this perspective of Saul really resonated with me - like Saul, a lot of my security is rooted in my personal ability. Unlike Saul who, when called to take the throne, felt like he was lacking, I grew up believing and being taught that if I put my mind to it and work hard, I can do anything. When I do well and this belief is reinforced, my pride swells. When I don't do well and this belief is threatened, my heart becomes defensive and jealous, as my unreliable source of security is threatened.

When I have this it's-all-about-what-I-can-do hat on, not only do I severely underplay the role of grace, there's always this nagging feeling that I'm missing out on something greater at play. It's so easy for me to place my sense of worth in what I believe I can do, but it's so foolish when the reality our God is a God that can do immeasurably more than we could ever even imagine. More than even my overly-active imagination could imagine...that's crazy. My best five bread and two fish pale in comparison to the basketfuls of leftovers God has planned. So, I'm really praying that each day I can continuously fix my eyes and get excited about, not what I can achieve, but what God can and will do.

Lord, as we prepare for missions, help us find our security in your love. May the gospel truth root itself deeper into our hearts, and through it, may we find the courage to really step out in faith. Help us take even greater joy in the peace we have in this security and love that cannot be taken away, and may we get even more excited about missions, because you are a God that does immeasurably more!